Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Fat Chick vs. Food - Week Sixteen

Well, hello there. I've been a little MIA lately. My bad. You guys can all stop the letter writing campaign now, I'm back. Ha! Yeah, whatever.

We are now actually about half way through week sixteen, and I’m only getting around to posting now. Unfortunately, that is a pretty accurate representation of how last week went with the whole Fat Chick project. I’ve been trying to get around to exercising, but well….my car was broken for a few days, and then work got SUPER busy, and then my kids got all needy and wanted a mother, blah, blah, blah.

I’m having a problem with balance. My old job was boring and easy so I had all kinds of time to plan meals, research fitness ideas and take off early to go workout. Since I went and got myself a real job, I’ve actually had to work during the day. Can you imagine? Like, all day.

When I get home I have a whole bunch of kids maul me immediately and by the time I manage to shake 'em off all I want to do is watch some crappy television show and then go to bed. I’ve tried working out in the morning, but I just can’t do it. My body can't be forced to do anything other than stand underneath running water and ingest coffee before 8:00 am.

I’ve been pretty good with the food, but the taunting force of the Easter chocolate that I KNOW is in my house has broken me a few times. I gave it all to the Hubby to hide so I wouldn’t be tempted, but all that’s really done is provoke me to rip my house apart like some crazed crack addict who has misplaced her stash. Seriously, last night you would have assumed I had hosted The Who concert after party based on all the crap I had thrown around looking for that fucking chocolate rabbit.

So, what’s a Fat Chick to do? I’m not sure, actually. Cut what I’m eating way down and make peace with starvation? Exercise like a lunatic on the weekends? I honestly can’t quite come up with a real option right now, but one thing I know I’m not going to do is surrender.

I have lost weight in the past and I know how this goes. I inevitably get to a certain point and then surrender to it all. I let the Fat Chick win and then spend the next year gaining all my weight back. I’m not sure how to continue the momentum I have grown these past sixteen weeks, but I’m going to come up with something. I better come up with something.

I haven't lost any weight in ten days. I still have 36.5 pounds to go.


Casey said...

Hey stranger, I was wondering about you but figured your new job was bogging you down.

I'm in the same exact predicament except that instead of a job keeping me busy all day, I have whiny, needy children. When they go to bed, I just want to veg and decompress.

Not sure what the solution is, maybe exercise during your lunch hour if you can?

Blogging Mama Andrea said...

So I didn't make you leave the blog world. As soon as I started following you stopped blogging. I was thinking I had a really good track record going ;)

I don't know how to go about fitting in more time to get things done. I work from home writing so it's easy for me to move around whatever to do things.

I like the idea of the lunch break for exercise. Even walking around the area where you work? A small effort can eventually make a difference. For snacking, if you like them, try eating baby carrots. The crunch helps me to keep my fingers out of the goody closet.

Good luck!

Sherendipity said...

Ugh. Dieting sucks ass.
Good for you for wanting to stick with it. I'm pulling for ya.

Kim said...

You are so funny! I think we all struggle with balance too. Focusing on one area inevitably takes something away from another. Good for you for not wanting to give up. Loving your writing.

Keely said...

Anything I can do?

Could you work out at lunch/after work in the scary casino gym? Or make to the Y with the scores of other people for 1/2 hour on the treadmill?

Jenni said...

It's normal to hit a weight-loss plateau. Don't loose heart; you've done such an awesome job this far. You will get back on track. Damn children and their needs.

LiLu said...

I so hear you on this... I want to have fun, AND handle all the crap I have to do... but at that point, there is just no time to figure out healthy meals or god forbid, exercise. You're doing better than me, love!

Frogs in my formula said...

I know exactly what you mean about finding time. For like 3 weeks my job was super busy and when I got home all I wanted to do was sack out. By the time the kid was in bed I was brain dead. Luckily it's slowed down again. Hopefully it'll stay that way.

Do you have a lunch hour? I started walking for 20 mins during and even that little bit has helped. (Oops, I see everyone else beat me to that suggestion.)

Shangrila said...

I don't have advice-just want to say that your readers (myself included) love and believe in you. I like to tell myself, "Progress, not perfection" when life thwarts me-Hang in there, you can DO IT!